• Another Disappointment

    Another Disappointment

    This is probably going to give you all a look into how my depression brain works. I need people to know I have no plans to harm myself or end my life — I feel like some of my thoughts could cause someone to think that, but I promise I won’t. I did my blood…

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  • House Settlement

    House Settlement

    Earlier today, my husband and I settled on the house we bought. It’s a first-time buy for him, and a second one for me. We won’t be able to move in until end of July/early August because the current (now former, I guess) owners are getting a new home built that won’t be ready until…

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  • A Little Life Update

    A Little Life Update

    It’s going to be a busy week for me. Although with me doing anything makes it a busy week. Today, I had a follow up Zoom appointment with my main fertility doctor. When I started my last IUI cycle, they told me to schedule with her to talk next steps if I’m not pregnant. It…

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  • Today’s Tarot Reading

    Today’s Tarot Reading

    I’m trying to get back into doing daily tarot readings for myself. Today I got this. My hope is that this means I’m finally going to get pregnant.

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  • Working Toward my Goals

    Working Toward my Goals

    More than a year ago, I was working on improving my health. I was eating better, drinking less Pepsi, doing Pilates two days a week, and walking five days a week. I was using a walking app and everything. I think I was doing pretty well. Then, as frequent readers know, my mom was diagnosed…

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  • Fertility Adventures Pt. 4

    OK. It’s time to talk about the most recent steps I’ve been taking on my fertility journey. The first thing my doctor wanted to try (and I am currently doing) is intrauterine insemination (IUI). I was told we would try it for three cycles, and if I don’t get pregnant, we’ll reevaluate and try something…

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  • Fertility Adventures Pt. 3

    So, now to go on about my MRI and surgery. Both of these things happened in the same week — so exciting. The MRI happened first. Part of me was afraid they would find a tumor on my pituitary gland, especially now that I know I may get a brain tumor someday. I can’t recall…

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  • Fertility Adventures Pt. 2

    Before I go on to talk about the procedure I had, I think I need to mention another thing that can make it difficult for me to get pregnant: I’m 35. Apparently, that’s when it starts to get harder to have a baby. The likelihood of getting pregnant drops again when you turn 40. So,…

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  • Fertility Adventures

    Fertility Adventures

    I’ve always been someone who wanted kids. I can’t think of a time where I didn’t. Of course, I fully support people who don’t want children. I understand every reason for not wanting them. I think I just have that urge, or whatever in me. Anyway, I wasn’t going to have a kid unless I…

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  • Prompt

    Prompt

    My favorite season is spring. I love seeing all the flowers blooming and how everything seems to be coming to life.

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