• Update Time

    Update Time

    I know, I know. It’s been a while (again). I’m definitely still in a weird spot after my mom’s death. September 5th was her birthday. She would’ve been 62, and I still can’t help but feel how unfair it is that she didn’t get more time. The next day, my dad finally had the memorial

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  • Fertility Adventures Pt. 7

    Fertility Adventures Pt. 7

    It’s been a while, I know. I was a little busy with moving into my new house and whatnot. So. I talked about being on all those medications so I could have some eggs sucked out of me for IVF. The doctor had warned me that the follicle-stimulating shot was going to make me very

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  • Fertility Adventures Pt. 6

    It’s been a minute since I updated about all this stuff. I am currently in the middle of an IVF cycle. I have several medications I need to take daily. One was an antibiotic that I was only on for a couple of days. The other medications are to stimulate my follicles so that multiple

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  • I Really Needs Things to Stop Happening

    My last post made me realize that I may not be doing as mentally well as I thought. I was going to make a little post to, like, dive deeper into it but then A TREE HIT MY FUCKING HOUSE. The old one, not the new one. So, yeah, I’ve been a little stressed. My

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  • Monday Thoughts

    Monday Thoughts

    I’ve been feeling . . . weird lately. I’m not entirely sure how to explain it. For a while I haven’t felt like doing anything, which of course can be related to all the sad shit that has been happening in my life. But now I have the feeling that I want to do something

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  • Fertility Adventures Pt. 5

    It has been a hot minute since I posted. I guess I needed time to cool down and all that from the failure of my last IUI cycle. I’m starting all the IVF shit soon. I have a Zoom consultation with them tomorrow and then on Friday I have another Zoom consultation with genetics people,

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  • A New Day

    A New Day

    So. Yesterday was a day with a lot of emotion. I did even more crying after my husband went to bed and I didn’t have a distraction. I think posting a blog helped. When I feel super sad I always need a way to get it out. I’m not so good at verbally expressing my

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  • Another Disappointment

    Another Disappointment

    This is probably going to give you all a look into how my depression brain works. I need people to know I have no plans to harm myself or end my life — I feel like some of my thoughts could cause someone to think that, but I promise I won’t. I did my blood

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  • House Settlement

    House Settlement

    Earlier today, my husband and I settled on the house we bought. It’s a first-time buy for him, and a second one for me. We won’t be able to move in until end of July/early August because the current (now former, I guess) owners are getting a new home built that won’t be ready until

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  • A Little Life Update

    A Little Life Update

    It’s going to be a busy week for me. Although with me doing anything makes it a busy week. Today, I had a follow up Zoom appointment with my main fertility doctor. When I started my last IUI cycle, they told me to schedule with her to talk next steps if I’m not pregnant. It

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