It’s weird how that works, right? It seems to be passing so quickly but it’s also as if no time has passed at all. I’ve felt that way with my relationship with my husband and now I feel that way with my son. It feels like we only just bought Sonny home, but at the same time, it feels like he’s been here forever. He’s changed so much in almost three months.
He’s not just a little lump who sleeps all the time anymore. I have to figure out how to entertain him while he still can’t do much. I’m figuring it out, though. I’ve learned which toys can keep his attention for a while. I just worry that he gets bored.
Of course, he’s still at a stage where he needs to be with another person all the time. Whether it’s just him hanging out or for sleeping. We still can’t get the guy to sleep in his bassinet — he wakes up as soon as you pop him in it. It’s even made it difficult for me to keep up with the 15 minute workouts I was doing. I simply don’t like hearing him cry for a solid 15 minute period. My ears can’t handle it. Although, the past two days he’s been calm in his swing for a while, so hopefully I can put him in the swing and get back to that again.
Writing has been a bit hard too. Mostly because he’s always in my lap. But the swing thing may help with that. I’m excited to get to the point with my current writing project where I can start posting it places and try to maybe get published. The problem is I have to actually write the thing. That’s the thing with writing, you have to get through all the boring parts to get to the fun stuff — both with the story itself and with sharing it.
Another thing I’ve been wanting to do is possibly getting my Bachelor’s Degree. I could probably get some decent remote work with that. Some of this want stems from feeling like I don’t contribute enough while my husband does so much. But in reality, a second income would be helpful now that we have a child. A problem with working toward that goal also involves Sonny currently needing me so much. So I’m likely going to have to wait until he’s a little older to do that. Hell, I may have to wait to just get a job to help pay for the degree. I know my grandmother would likely help me pay for school, but I still want the option open to pay for myself just in case.
I’ll have to wait and see how the next few months go. Hopefully, I can find time to work toward some of my goals.
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