Gabby Writes

It’s been a tough year for me. I can get into the nitty gritty details later, so let’s start with the gist of it all.

May 2024 my mom was in the hospital and diagnosed with stage 4 brain cancer. Any strides I made in trying to improve myself or work for my dreams were put on hold. All I could think about was how she was doing and hope she wasn’t going to die anytime soon.

Her condition started to get worse in January of this year. She could only say “yeah” and “no,” and could no longer move her right arm and leg. She had a second surgery, which we were told would be her last whether it helped or not. We simply wished she could maybe start to speak again. Unfortunately, while in the hospital, she had a seizure. Her condition started to get worse.

While all this was going on, I was planning my wedding, my grandfather’s health went downhill, and both of my dad’s sisters were diagnosed with breast cancer. Both my mom and grandfather were in hospice care. My grandfather died two days before my wedding. Then, the day after my wedding, I found out my mom had died the day before.

I’m still seriously depressed about the loss of my mom, but now that I’m no longer waiting for someone to die, I feel like it’s time I got back on track. I need to start actively working toward my goals again. I put off everything from the worry. Hopefully, doing this will keep my mind distracted and help bring me some joy.